20 months after being diagnosed, 14 months into maintenance therapy, and 4 months from the end of treatment (EOT), a small number of cancerous blasts were found in the spinal fluid sample of Beaudin’s quarterly lumbar puncture.

Because the number of blasts was below the relapse threshold, chemo was administered and a follow-up LP was done one month later. With blasts present in the sample, Beaudin was diagnosed as a CNS only, late-relapse.

Posts on Relapse:

Dear Beau, on the day of your port removal,

Dear Beau, Last night you scored the winning run of your baseball game. I cried hot tears as you ran across home plate and into the dugout where your teammates crowded around you, everyone estatic. You struck out earlier in the game and were so down on yourself. The game had been a…

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Beau’s cancer story- the quick and dirty.

I wanted to get the high-level of Beau’s story in one post so that a newly diagnosed, or newly relapsed cancer, parent could have a single place to read about it. Would I like them to read every post I’ve written? Well sure, but I know how the frantic google search of a…

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Same Island, Less Denial

Our trip to Captiva, November 2021. Denial Island hit different this year. Last year we packed up and fled to denial island days after hearing that Beau had most likely relapsed and that we would be spending 28-days inpatient starting December 6th. There is nothing like the threat of a monthlong inpatient hospital…

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The dentist and the ram.

I hadn’t expected to cry while cooking up lunch yesterday. I guess if I am honest the feeling, the hot tears, are always only a couple of thoughts away. Like the other day at Ozo when I heard the gentleman tell the mom of two young kids, “I know it’s cliche, but it…

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A supportive kitchen floor and a shopping spree.

After posting my dark room post a dear cancer mama friend asked how I was doing with the one year anniversary of Beau’s relapse coming up. At the moment, fresh off a productive writing session and post publication, I was feeling fine. But the audible pause before I answered her led me to…

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Canaries in September.

Each September the info graphics start flooding my Facebook feed. As though they finally have an excuse to scream these statistics at the top of their lungs, all my cancer mom friends fill their pages with data on childhood cancer that everyone needs to know. I’m looking at you Jess McKearney, you have…

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Three doctors walk into a bar: second T-cell collection

Last week Beaudin had his t-cell apheresis completed locally at our hospital in Denver. Beau had his cell collected. He rocked it. He said the PowerWand line placement was a 2 on the 1-10 pain scale. Which says a lot about how damn brave he is, and also a lot about how lucky…

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